In the Midst of Delusions

An extremely confusing time in my life (that doesn't really narrow it down...) I had returned to graduate with my senior class after missing my sophomore and junior years of high school.

In the midst of delusions

I can't come to a conclusion

My friends that used to be

Have all forgoten me

The troubles in my mind

Can not be defined

I missed my chance to love

I missed my chance to live

I missed my chance to grow

Now I just don't know...

 

the gun is at my head

as I'm lying on the bed

the tear stained sheet

proves my lifes defeat

my bloodstains on the wall

make me realize all

my life was such a joke

and now its up in smoke

as I slowly drift away...

 

In the midst of delusions

My life was an illusion

Now that I have realized

There was more to life than met my eyes

I regret the day I left

I regret when I returned

I regeret those inbetween

Those days I spent

Crying softly

Slowly dying.....