Love till you stop reading.

Veetz

Break-up..
not really more like a break down...

My eyes need rest
Burning, look into the mirror now and see nothing
No feeling, my body burns with exhaustion
My battery is running out
Things are better this way
My head feels like its going to explode
But at least I didn't cry over you today

The instability you come with is unreal
The heart you live with does not feel

I was there before
Craving love and attention like a child,
I was there before
Giving love and affection that was mild,
I played everyone around me like life was a game
I realized quickly, for everyone that hurt, I was to blame,
The happiness you seek is empty
But you need to experience it to feel at mercy..
To loneliness
That one day you are running behind nothingness


Dreams or Nightmares...

Thoughts are always biting
Loneliness keeps chasing
Jump out of sleep heart racing
Mind goes blank,
I am running

As people leave the room,
Palms are sweating, chest is hurting
Fear
Wells up inside me
Drowning as it rises
Almost like I can't breathe
Almost like I need...
You



Jazzy

A heart is - - - as much flawed as a mis-thought
presuming egg shell slippers would cushion souls when the frying pan’s hot
in attempt to protect, each step crushes as you listen
so now in reality its hot - you run the f**k out the kitchen

at a break neck speed, like the walls your heart erects
to store away – preserve – hide behind
that cowardice, to be used at a later time
cause the risk of getting burned by your own shallowness
was fear enough for your heart to re-route your mind’s eye

from seeing that
rough-edged pages might have lines confessing
powerlessness, or
temporary vulnerability doesn't equal affectionless-ness
and previous scars don’t predicate my consequences
to how you behave but they merely adjust my lenses

so I might see a tattered sheet, not judging by the cover
but reading in between
the lines and confessions - blueprinting good intentions
that no matter how seemingly obtuse
pave a road through hell, not to

so despite the flaws, tears, and hell fires
risks of heartbreaks, walls tumbled, kind liars
weeping endures a night but joy cometh in the morn’
like out of a clear mind learnt from heart-tattered-flaws,
lovers that walk through - beside you - are born

no beauty without sacrifice
but this will be hard for your eyes to behold

since you probably can’t read this
still healing from paper cuts behind
walls erected as consequences of mis-thoughts
mistrusts
running on egg shells to or from what
you know not
not knowing what you want, blind to the love you got and what it is


Savior

Its time to bring it
Broken violin string another hit
Moments for us to sing it
All these rhymes i gotta wing it
Like a bumblebee, love can be sweet
But now it might just sting it
Life is too short to think
So Imma just swing it
Fling my hall of fame ring s**t

But the fans never known
I go home alone
Stay alone
My success is enjoyed by my own
Failure within that never shown
I fell into this unknown
Poppin pills as my depression grown
Suicide hotline speed dials on my phone
My heart feels cold as stone
Pump me flat line
My love flats monotone
I continued to breath
As living my life was put on postpone
The sweetest thing in my life
Has always been my own cologne
Would you give me some love
Where do I apply for a quick loan
Writing this just gets me into the zone

Just let me make it clear
These are real, dear
I'll trade in my whole career
Just to feel the love and cheer
Maybe I'll just volunteer
Stand clear right here
Beside veetz and jazzy to premiere
One of the write piece of the year
Self destruct in 10
Maybe feelings might re-apppear

This is like just pure magic
Writing just for passion and kick
Feelings just run within us thick
Love can shatter like an earthquake
Now take a notepad quick
Spit out how we feel
There goes a new classic
Love can be hurting
So this piece is now my medic.