What Were You Thinking

This guy really messed me up emotionally, broke my heart, and just hurt me bad in ways i can't even explain and then after 2 years decides that its a good time to call me and try and apologize while he's on ecstasy. let me just ask WHAT was he thinking?

 

So long ago i felt the pain, harsh and strong inside.

and its taken years to smother it but finally it has died.

I try to burn the images, erase them from my brain.

I try to take back mistakes and cover up old stains.

And through the years it's been hard, i cant forget a thing.

each morning when i wake the memories still sting.

I wanted to believe you, those pretty lies you told.

loving you was stupid and i must say: its gotten old.

I let you out of my heart so i could love anew

forcing myself over it and my hate for you grew.

I know i told you once before this is what i do.

I force myself to hate you, to keep the love from coming through.

Does it still hurt? of course it does. it never goes away.

and then one day you call me so that you can say.

your sorry for the pain you caused as if you really are

but I”m positive its quite the opposite by far

you never told the truth before, why now after the times passed.

to think you could be serious makes me want to laugh

i took such strong measures to push you from my heart

do me a favor and don't make me fall apart.

I will never love you in any way again.

i can never call you anything close to friend.

Things you did to hurt me, it seemed like you enjoyed.

with my life you tormented and with my heart you toyed.

how can you ask me to forgive you when I'm still hurting so?

how can you expect an answer besides a solid no?

You really had me going but no not anymore

i refuse to play your games and be treated like a w***e.

so think things through next time dumb a*s before picking up your phone.

remember why things got this way and why your all alone.

of course i wont forgive you your not worthy of me at all

if your counting on me to catch you, do expect..... to fall.

Reviews

[MandarinOranges]

Oh, how heartbreakingly close to a situation I found myself in not too long ago.

Stay strong and don't let him, or his memory, bring you down!!

Beautiful poem, nicely written. Flows really well. Thanks for sharing.

[T.K. Bruhn]

Wow. Great poem. That guy really messed up. what an a*s. anyways great poem and thats for sharing!