a year, 2 months, 19 days ago ...

me still love my ex whatever the reason is..

About a year, 2 months and 19 days ago, on a same date, same month, my ex and me decided to end our relationship up. I forgot this day firstly, but when on a 1st year 'anniversary' of our separation day, my ex suddenly text me, here is my via-text message conversation (it's in indonesian, i translated into english anyway) :

Him : hey, today is 29^th, isn’t? LOL
Me : OMG, yes it is, I forget! Oh my, it has been a year!)”
Him : yes, i’m now celebrating it with my friends, LOL. Honestly, I haven’t been, and can’t erase you from my heart. Although I’ve tried to forget you with have a relationship with another girl, until broke up, you’re still in my heart. Till this time on every 29^th, I always celebrate it.”
Me : =) =) =) (read : speechless)
Him :I’m sorry, but ... I still love you.
Me : =) =) =) (read : speechless again)
Him : can i meet you? I miss you
Me : yes, we can. I’ll contact you later
Him : Ok, Good night and sleep well

After that, I was just thinking about him, about us. Our memories, our fights, our intimacy, togetherness, everything. We had so many things; and it’s definitely hard for me to forget those. We actually belong to the different religion, I am Muslim, and he’s catholic. My dad was disagreed with our relationship, and so was his mum. My mum never mentioned it, she is more liberal than my dad, and his dad is Muslim too, he was fine. His mum is the most disagreed person, she had tried more and more to separate us, and he (my ex) used to be careful in every step he takes if it’s related to me, like make a phone call, sms, go out, and so on. And you know, have a backstreet relationship isn’t always good and easy. Sometimes it’s getting harder in some situations. But believe it or not, my ex and me can through it for almost 3 years (in add, we broke up on a same day we started it. Sick, huh? MORE THAN THAT, I was dying in my first 2 month).

Although he’s not a worth guy for me to deserve, and he has less maturity than I wanted, I still love him, the way he was. I didn’t care how childish he was, all I want was him. Then finally, I got tired, I was sick, and he was so. We decided to leave each other. Surely, it didn’t mean I hate him. I can’t hate someone who has given his time to me, he’s no need to be hated. But relationship is not about love alone, we need many things beyond love itself, to build a good relationship. Love can make us tougher to face anything, and it has an integration with such several other things. That’s why I was daring to end it up, for the sake of our future. He deserves another girl as I deserve another boy. We just had spent time together to fill our heart, to acknowledge this life better, to understand how it supposed to be, and I’ve learned many things with my relationship, our relationship. Thank God I found him, without him, I can’t know these all. =)

Author's Note

ignore grammar problems, english is not my primary language actually.. :D