That night

this is inspired by the first night I tried to kill myself

She doesn’t see her beauty

All she sees is her scares

Covering her body

Baring her face in her pain

They ask her how she feels

After all the pills

She fakes her smiles

Says she’s fine

Then goes and cries

That night

She remembers all to well

The way she cried

The way she wanted to die

Scars are everywhere

Behind her smile you’d never know

The pain she feels everyday

No one knew for the longest time

She hid it all too well

Till she couldn’t take it anymore

A hand full of pills

A bottle of whiskey

She lay down

Closed her eyes

Took a deep breath

Whispered goodbye

That’s when she walked in

Saw her laying there

Saw the dropped pills

The half empty bottle

The little girl screamed

Next thing she knew

She woke up in white room

She looked around

Saw her sitting there

Tear stains on her cheeks

All she could think

What have I done

I hurt the only one

I love