Thank You.

To sustain a strong emotion in your mind is not healthy. To consume your time with retrospective thoughts on love and memories, defeats the will to obtain any other emotion. I try to clear you from my mind, but it seems close to impossible. Like a cloud of smoke, I wish I could blow everything about you away and all that exists. You take over my mind, my thoughts, and my habits, I cannot stress to you the limit you exceed in my life. My love for you goes beyond that of a simple thought..but these thoughts are simply abstractions, far from reality. I know I may not hold your world in the palm of my hand, I may not even be a concept in your life, not even a consideration. I can tell you that you have changed me in ways I never thought possible. You are my better half, my other half. I know this is true. I wish you could see the image I have created, a picture painted perfectly. The thought of you can stop the world from spinning, you make the darkest night alive in white lights. You are the only one I see, the only one that prevails in my rights, my alter ego. I do not want you to forget about the good in what we had, the happiness you showed me, that now makes me sad. With you I feel as though every breath I breathe is vital, you are the air I long to breathe. You have found the life in me, you have given me another chance to find happiness in affection. You have shown me the true definition of passion not only in love, but in life. You have to fight for what you want, sometimes even lose it to know that it does exist. I cannot ask you for another chance, I cannot tell you that I have changed for the better, or that things will be different. All I can tell you is that I love you, everything about you. I find comfort in the sound of your voice, security in your arms, and hope in the state of your presence. With you I feel like anything is possible, I can accomplish anything in life. I want to see your dreams come true and be in the life you long to live. I want to wake up to your smile, lay right beside you, and hold your hand. Knowing that you're happy means everything to me. I would never want to see you upset or hurt, you deserve much more than any other girl can give you. I want to give you what you deserve, what you long for, and what you need. What we as humans all long for..love. I want you and all the struggles it brings along, I want it all. I want the good and the bad, the rights and the wrongs, I want to see your faults and flaws. Anything you do or say can not even compare to perfection, you are much more than the word alone. I know I can make you happy, I have done it before, as well as you for I. All I need to know in life is that I will always have your love, and for you to know that you will forever hold my heart. No matter how damaged it got, how bruised it gets, and how much it hurts, you will have it, no matter what you do. The love you have given me is eternal, the feeling you helped create, will never go away. You hold the precious moments of my life, the ever lasting first love. For that, I thank you.