Mirror, Mirror

I suffer from body dysmorphic disorder (BDD), and this poem is about my struggle with it.

Mirror, mirror, on the wall

Who's the fairest of them all?

Not me

Every morning when I look

At my reflection

I'm disgusted by what I see

Staring back

Not good enough!

Too fat!

Ugly b***h!

You're worthless!

I spend hours trying to look my best

And still I'm rarely satisfied

Although people tell me I'm beautiful

I cannot see what they see

"It's the inside that counts," my mother tells me

"You don't need makeup," my boyfriend promises

I know they mean well, but nothing they say

Can change how much I hate myself

Mirror, mirror, on the wall

When will you show me the truth?

Author's Note

Dysmorphia is a disorder where your view of yourself is distorted. I cannot see myself the way others see me; I struggle with trying to see myself as beautiful. When I look in the mirror, I search my face for the tiniest flaws, and then magnify them. Even though it's a "false" image, it's still real to me. Although those around me tell me I'm pretty, I still can't see what they see, which makes it very difficult to have a good self-image.

I don't know if I'm explaining it right, check Google/Wikipedia if you still don't understand.

Reviews

[Patrick Henry]

I don't understand the "disease", but it's a bit deceiving to see a picture of what looks to be a beautiful girl for your avatar. If it's you, then this just got awkward!! : ) That poem of yours is written about as strong as one could write one. A little is said, even sarcastically, and BAM!! ....fist hits the table. A little more.... and BAM!! Again a fist hits the table. I have had friends that thought the same of them when they were younger to only hit drugs when they got older. Some were used sexually for their dads and their dad's friends, and there was little I could do as a young kid to change that. Oh!! I just saw your hint to Google the word. Sweet. *hug* Great poem. xoxo -Mark

[Sarah Beth]

Yes, my avatar is me. Thanks for your comment, I'm glad you liked it. I wrote it from the heart. :)

[Sami Khalil]

Thank you for sharing this poem ...