Becoming the Light

Life is vastly and undeniably overwhelming.

 

I am unsure whether it is just the excessive workings of my mind, or the philosophical nature of my thoughts, or perhaps merely the acute awareness of my heart, but… I can barely breathe half the time.

 

I am never going to be content with complacency. And I am never going to be satisfied with normalcy.  I got in my car and I drove away from it all, but inevitably I returned. Although I am stronger, better, purer - I have also been down the mountain, and not only do I think, but now I know that there is more.

 

I have also read the words of the late John O’Donohue, and they stir me to believe in a transcendent place - where the soul is a place of respect, and the landscape is an embrace.

 

People are cruel. The extent of this truth is devastating to me in a way I can not begin to explain. Life is but I brief breath, and yet we spend so much of it hurting one another - being spiteful, judgmental, vindictive, manipulative, etc. I have no patience for it anymore. Previously, I could deal with it - I could fall for it, even, but now… oh, Now.

 

Now none of it matters. The pettiness, the cattiness, the regret and the self-pity. Everyone walks around bemoaning the state of their life, rather than altering it, and it makes me want to scream. I know there are people out there who are strong enough to impress themselves upon the world, rather than allow the world to oppress them.  This is the type of person I want to be.

 

The person I want to be is so powerful, so fascinating, so incredible, that perhaps I am scared of her myself. Perhaps a part of me wants to allow the environment around me to silence and stifle me. Yet with this awareness, I must fight - I must fight against complacency. I must become that light I wish to shine upon the world.

Reviews

[Annie29]

We are too much alike.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in the wrong place at the wrong time. That place being this world, that time being before, now, and forever. I believe my soul mate was probably Emerson because I can't seem to find anyone in this world who speaks to me as so. The present is horrible, but maybe it's the way a look at it. I don't know. "Everyone walks around bemoaning their state of mind". Maybe that's my problem. Everyone is happy with what's given to them and I'm too busy trying to alter it. Great rant, powerful.

[Kara Emily Krantz]

Thank you! Gosh, awesome review this late at night; made my evening. :) Mmmmmm Emerson - I completely understand.

[Patrick Henry]

It's the "philosophical nature of my thoughts". I think that is what births imagination and creates a very rich perspective on what we consider to be a personal truth when all facts may lead elsewhere!! Gorgeous! I feel like I'm in conversation with you, when reading you. lol Books are not written like this.... not books "I" have read before, anyways. It's a lot of fun and is no labor of stress, emotion or time... spending it with you in either story or poem. You are a great addition to this site, and are a lot of fun to enjoy!! This piece is an "imaginative inspirational stimulation"!! I love it.... xoxo -Mark

[Alphachad]

Wow. Ive never read a rant so beautiful and spiritual. I'm glad you wrote this

[Ed Hart]

i am so happy for you...

[Mr. Misanthrope]

Everyone wishes to be the complete opposite of who they are at the moment. Maybe someone more spontaneous. It would certainly make life a hell of a lot more interesting. This is why this enlightening piece of yours struck me, as it screams the thing I am trying to be at this particular time in my life, a time of hormones, which can often be seen in my work. Lol. (Maybe you already noticed:P)

Great work! There is nothing I love more than a short fragment of raw emotions, broken from one's already shattering soul.

Luke

[Natasha Ashway]

Yes.

[PianoandPage]

great inspirational write kara! people are cruel. cruel to others but sometimes even crueller to themselves.

i know that i'm scared of a better me. but i'm still trying to let him/her out.

thanks for sharing. i connected with what you are feeling.

[Done]

Wow... Get out of my head. I swear I was reading something I was thinking outloud--as if you were thinking the same thing I've been thinking lately in my life. It's... wow.
"I know there are people out there who are strong enough to impress themselves upon the world, rather than allow the world to oppress them. This is the type of person I want to be."
This line says it all.
Thank you very much for a fantastic read. Just made my whole day, thank you.
Josh

[Dyrt]

Beautifully written I just wish I was flying high I am fighting myself but currently there is no wind for my sails.

[Lee E. Powell]

I like this! But what question are you answering?
I thought your words were well written and insightful but I didn't really see a plot. It was more as if you were answering a question that someone had asked.