perhaps...

I don't know.
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Perhaps it's the fluidity with which life slips past our fingertips.
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I try to speak but the words have already been said. They make no difference now.
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Perhaps it's the heart's desperate attempt to seek solace within another.
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Perhaps it's the skin's need to be touched. The body's need to be held.
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Or my soul's need to lay beside a kind heart. Fingertips entwined.
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Perhaps it's the memory of the way I fit like a puzzle piece into the curve of his shoulder.
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Or the way his body would melt into the sheets when my lips met the curve of his ear.
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Perhaps it's the fear that my walls will re-erect.
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Will I ever trust my heart again?
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Perhaps it's the fear that my joy was not real. Did I delude myself?
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Perhaps I had been ready to fall, and he had been ready to push.
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and then
.
later
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Perhaps I had been ready to hurt, and he had been ready to cut me deep.
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Perhaps he was the blade I used to cut myself.
.
.
.and now.
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I bleed all over the page and call it poetry.

Reviews

[The Last Ronin]

Superb!
The longing and self blame is very real to anyone who has been there.
"Perhaps he was the blade I used to cut myself."
Brilliant description of the "other side" of love, which many of us know all to well.

Most excellent!!

[Starlight]

I have no words to describe the impact your verse had on me... 'coz i'v felt exactly this way.

[Maria G.]

Beautiful and so sad, gave me goosebumps similar to listening to a really sad song..
I hope expressing this through poetry has helped your heart to heal..

[Tony Nesca]

wow, sadly gorgeuos, beautiful and heart-felt and deeply touching, whoa, good stuff...

tony

[Rc R. Vagilidad]

"Perhaps it's the memory of the way I fit like a puzzle piece into the curve of his shoulder. "- reminded me of "conformation", i love the way you put your ideas, they don't blend but they just come off straight and pure....another fave...

[Shannon Drake]

"Perhaps I had been ready to fall, and he had been ready to push."

amazing. i love the feel in this.. like all of your poetry. i can deffinitly relate to this.. it was exactly how i felt once. alone. scared. wanting something.. but at the same time not wanting it. i just.. i love it.

"I bleed all over the page and call it poetry."
very nice ending.

[Jazlean]

perhaps...
its still ringing in my ears, and probably will for some time to come, perhaps it'll never leave.

i see it, i hear it, i feel it..it is sad and amazing, well done..its amazing i could even write this for im speechless..

[Anhedonia 1349]

Wow. This makes the third piece in a row from you that I can't rave about enough. You feel so much. That's a strength, but it's also a weakness. You know those stupid online blog quiz/survey things? My friend posted one, and one of the questions was, "What is my biggest weakness?" My answer: You're just one of those people who care too much...

You're just one of those people who care too much. I'm sorry for the pain you feel.

I must say, and I'm sure I speak for the rest of us on this site: If you have to keep bleeding, bleed here. Your words make the world a better place.

Favorite. Again.

[Rachel P. Salamone]

this is so sad...the last line did it for me...i know my stuff is depressing, but this is really depressing. i kinda wanna give u a hug lol *hugs*