perhaps...

I don't know.
.
Perhaps it's the fluidity with which life slips past our fingertips.
.
I try to speak but the words have already been said. They make no difference now.
.
Perhaps it's the heart's desperate attempt to seek solace within another.
.
Perhaps it's the skin's need to be touched. The body's need to be held.
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Or my soul's need to lay beside a kind heart. Fingertips entwined.
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Perhaps it's the memory of the way I fit like a puzzle piece into the curve of his shoulder.
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Or the way his body would melt into the sheets when my lips met the curve of his ear.
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Perhaps it's the fear that my walls will re-erect.
.
Will I ever trust my heart again?
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Perhaps it's the fear that my joy was not real. Did I delude myself?
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Perhaps I had been ready to fall, and he had been ready to push.
.
and then
.
later
.
Perhaps I had been ready to hurt, and he had been ready to cut me deep.
.
Perhaps he was the blade I used to cut myself.
.
.
.and now.
.
I bleed all over the page and call it poetry.

Reviews

[Aegrus]

Your work is very good. "I bleed all over the page and call it poetry".........speechless......

[Ron Cole]

Aaaah, If, and Perhaps! Two VERY LARGE words! I have a lot of if's, and if only's! Very incisive write, Kara!

[Andrew Flisser]

great work...i can kinda relate to the last line"i bleed al over the page...."

[Alexis Ryan]

this one gave me chills...

[JlB]

Hi Kara, this is wonderful work. I love it, the ending is brutally wonderful. The story it tells is good and the repition drives the last line in hard.

I've felt like this before.
Good work.

[Roy L. Pickering Jr.]

What mastery of the English language you've exhibited here. The sadness this poem evokes is tangible enough to almost touch. Your imagery is a wonderful blend of metaphor and the all too real. And best of all, what an ending - "Perhaps I had been ready to hurt, and he had been ready to cut me deep. Perhaps he was the blade I used to cut myself. and now I bleed all over the page and call it poetry." If only all of us could bleed so eloquently. If we must be hurt deeply in life, and apparently we all must at one time or another, at least poets get to make good use of the pain.

[Alia December]

This is wonderful!!

[Nat Z. Punx]

this is my morticia.... i loved this. it speaks of emotions i can still not grasp

[Jenni Meck]

This was very emotional and speaks what others often feel...the questions we ask ourselves after heartache. You did really well writing this!

[Sean Allen]

Kara,
I liked the use of periods between each line and I loved the emotion behind the piece along with the 'cutter' analogy.
You might try to avoid using the word "Curve" in two consecutive lines, unless it's a poem about baseball. On the other hand a poem about love would be fine with the word 'Heart" repeated more often than it is, and using 'Perhaps" ten times is great as it reinforces what the poem is about.
I call this poetry!
Donn