Disconsolated Petulants

So let down and cannot be cheered, ground to dust and severely spiteful about this deep sadness

Self loathing to the max 

Daily anguish 

Rolling and living in my own filth  

No one checks on me 

No one sees how I suffer 

No one is helping

my eyes bleed 

from the bright lights 

of this existence

Every part of me aches

I cant even handle a snails pace

Hurt people hurt people

So I crawl farther into this dark place

Of all I have done 

I don't deserve it

yet, I know

I know

I'm the only one 

the only one 

that can save me from this race