Date Rape

I was date raped De 26, 2013 by my ex boyfriend after taking my sleeping pills and having a single rum and coke.

I don't know why you did it

And never you will tell,

why you pushed yourself upon me

for this I often dwell.

I remember the date clearly,

Decembery Twenty Sixth.

I took my medications,

and a rum and coke I fixed.

I fell asleep quite quickly

in my bed that night,

I wasn't even awake

when you sought your pleasures slight.

Dreams turned into nightmares,

when I woke up to find you

using my unconscious body

for an unwanted screw.

Confused and disoriented

I woke up in my bed,

you were there beside me

I was sick and full of dread.

So suddenly I knew

what you did to me.

I threw up in the bathroom

and left quite hastily.

I had nowhere to go

until the Thirty-First,

so I told my friend of

what you had forced.

I only told my friend.

But you told every one

how I'm a w***e while drunk,

and that you had so much fun.

I don't remember much

and for that I am grateful,

when I spoke about it though,

you said I was mentally unstable.

More than three years have passed

since the night of the rape.

I've lost sixty pounds,

memories I can't escape.

Do you ever think of it,

do you ever feel guilty?

You almost destroyed a person,

because you're f*****g filty.

I won't let you

get the last word once more

My life improved dramatically

without you using me as your w***e.

Author's Note

Trigger warning