Final farewell

I can’t bear to say goodbye.
To stand there and watch you leave,
Watch you really leave.
Leave us all to the rest of our lives.
It’s easy for those religious souls.
Easy to believe there is more than this,
More to go onto,
An everlasting peace where once again,
Everyone you lose,
Comes together in the end.
But for me.
The end is truly that.
An end of laughter.
An end of joy, of smiles,
Of you.
And all I’m left with,
Are fading memories,
Growing fainter still.
Until clouded by grief.
My memory tattered and torn,
Fails me somehow.
I don’t want to forget your face.
I don’t want time to heal my wounds.
Leaving silver scars,
Where once the pain crawled so deep inside,
My very soul drew back for fear of it.
I don’t want to feel better,
To go on,
If I have to go on alone.
No whispered words of comfort find me here,
No touch soothes me.
I am adrift in sorrow.
Lost to light and hope.
But still I breathe.
My traitorous heart urges me on.

Reviews

[Helen Woodward]

Beautiful, stunning,True!! "I don't want to feel better" exactly. You feel as if you're not grieving properly if you crack a smile or that you are somehow betraying. What a horrible time it is. I had a 36yr marriage and five children, now adults and my husband dropped dead in front of me at home 10months ago, so you can imagine what a shock that was.
Everything you say here is so true. I feel fortunate that I have faith in God and eternal life because if I didn't my life would be over.
A really good piece Sam, I loved it and please know that others are feeling the same.
Cheers,
Helen.

[Ashentara]

This is really, really powerful
having lost the love of my live ten months ago, I can totally relate, I went through every feeling you describe, especially "But still I breathe.
My traitorous heart urges me on. "

[Querida]

very very touching. amazing.

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

This is beautifully tragic. I have an idea many people have or do feel as this poem so well describes. A great piece of work, Sam.
Sorry for this it has to be hard!

Peace