I hate being alone.

I hate being alone,

and I try my absolute hardest every day,

not to come to an empty bed every night,

but every attempt to hang out

with the one person that makes me smile,

gets me turned down.

Every attempt to make new friends,

leaves me sitting at a crowded table,

my gaze admiring the beauty of the ground,

and silent

as no one pays me any mind.

Every raise of my hand in class

gets me nasty looks.

I hate being alone,

but what is the point in trying really?

when no matter how hard I try,

I will always be alone every night,

crying myself to sleep

every night.

I put up a wall to block out the pain of neglect during the day,

and it only ends up blocking out all my emotion.

So, I guess this crying every night

is the closest I will ever get to feeling any emotion

because this wall of mine is tight fitting

and I push people away to keep them safe

from my internal screaming of depression.

I will never be happy.

 

-S.L.S

Reviews

[Alexander B. Kerri]

I assume loneliness is a blessing to me. It seems loneliness isn't for everyone, but becoming secluded from society is blocking all negativity and replacing your brain with wonderful thoughts. Being lonely means you can achieve much more creativity and never be as much as the rest. It is a very horrid thing for me to be social with the positive outsiders I call humans but loneliness is a well mannered aspect. It doesn't mean you are alone or will never achieve greatness, it is only that sometimes we all feel that we are not creative enough or fit for this world which is technically saying, ' you are better than anyone who has ever treated you like rubbish, and that even if you stand alone, no ignorant peasant will get hold of my presence, he will only commit to be ignorant and will never be as moral or greater than the loner who may seem alone but has greater expectations.'

[Tom]

A poem about low self-esteem and it's debilitating confidence sapping effects !

A very brave and eloquent poem, this is sure to help many who may sometimes feel this way, well penned indeed and kudos to you !

[Coyote Poetry]

Loneliness can be hard. All of us need a place where we need to feel wanted and needed. A very sad poem. Sometime we must learn to live with our self. Sometime we need to make peace with our heart and mind then we can open the doors to friendship. Desperation scare people. Always be your self. Show them the writer and find people with the same goals. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry. Made me think this late morning.
Coyote

[Chris]

I guess the hardest person each of us has to live with is our self.