let it be....

 

let it be...

today i am lost. in my field, i wander, looking for him. tracking broken twigs on my bushes. footsteps, or scat...any sign. i beg the sky for a sign. and all im given is the tried and true. the lost, and broken. i sigh. but my eyes cannot abandon scanning this landscape for him. looking for a figment, a ghost ive created to guard my circle. searching for something i can never touch. never grace my fingers with. i close my eyes baby. i reach out with the tentacles of my heart, and i search for him. i follow the path unknown. blind. disappointed, i sink into the grass. watch it wave gracefully in the wind over my head. and his shadow is back. on the perimeter of my circle. tears of frustration lace my eyes. because i know its there. i can FEEL it. i can feel him. but i dont know where to look. i am alone here. he just stands. just exists. i cant take it. as his lyrics flow through my head, more real then i am. i stand. i run. i run until my chest aches. until im grasping a trees rough bark for support. i look around. for anyone. for one person to soothe me. but you arnt here. you arnt real. and i dont know why i keep kidding myself you are.