vain attempts

hiding behind my hoody, i dont want you to see the smile in my eyes. the upturned corner of my mouth, leaking my secret smile. huddling farther into the recesses of these words, i resist the insistant tugging on my hand, the ghost of your fingers sliding down my jaw...

 

trying to pull me out of my safe place...

 

as your hand slides up my face, and nudges off my hood...my eyes slip shut at the feeling of your hand on my throat...the gentle tugging of those hidden softest hairs at the back of my neck that never stay neatly where i put them. your mouth hot on my jugular, i cant restrain an excited sigh...

 

then i shrink away, from your kiss. i pull back my hand, pull up my hood, opening my eyes...and im between you and the bricks. persistant shoving, your lips bruising mine with unadultered want...wrenching my arm over my head, you hold me there. straddeling your lust, and covering me...life pouring out of your fingertips.

 

and i submit. and i give up...your all around me, and im so tired of fighting, hypnotized by the gold in your eyes. my mouth accepts that soft advance, that warm prodding. that wall is so firm and strong behind me, i finally collaspe into your arms...and youve won. alone no more, i rest my head on your strong shoulder, thanking god for your persistant existance. tears of joy running down my face...and finally, im home...