war

i am screaming in this cage. SCREAMING!!! bruising my fists on walls fashioned from regret. banging my head against them, untill im choking on blood. begging to pass out, and be free.  but theres no freedom here. no escape. just these thoughts, running circles around me, binding me... cutting off the circulation of commen sense, bound and trapped yet never gagged.  silent screams strangling me wrestling with my breath. but still, i waunder toward the walls, shuffeling, with my chains  like an inmate.   walls....   like that spot where they pulled your tooth. this empty vacant warm spot, i keep prodding with my tongue. tasteing blood. raw, and sore. and empty.   i can see from my tower, every mistake ive ever made. every tear, i forced myself into crying with the muscules of my own gullibility my own stupidity.   only in defeat, will the chains fall off will the walls crumble and so i resign myself   hanging my head in shame  i stumble through the rubble the spoils of war, scattered like brokan promises at my feet,   then, i sit. finally. realizing ive lost. lower my head into my hands, pull my knees to my chest, and finally just cry tears of lead...    one tear for every word you said to me. one tear for every kiss one tear for every lie i believed.   and over my tears, i can hear your booming laughter. victorius in your conquests, not yet seeing ive freed myself.   so i hide, from your shadow.

 

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"one tear for every word you said to me.

one tear for every kiss

one tear for every lie i believed."

These are my favorite lines. I was DYING for a line that read after "& one tear to take it all away." Although I don't know why.