RegressionA Poem by samanthaashley_Is it wrong that I still like to test the waters? I want to see that I still have control Over my life. I act out in obsessions and compulsions. I sabotage myself Just to see if I can survive the intervention. Is wrong that I live in a fantasy? That some day everything will be the way I believe it should be, My thoughts and my actions will be in sync. I ignore the obligation to take care of myself. I delude myself Just to see if I can survive reality. Is it wrong that sometimes I analyze my life for hours? Until my mind goes numb And I can't remember what started the criticism. I think and I write. I live for the self-degradation Just to see if I remember why living matters. Is it wrong that I break my own rules every once in a while? I pay the price for irrationality Until I start to love the chaos. I painstakingly choose the path that avoids all fear. I thrive in running from pain Just to see if I can survive the regression.
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25 Reviews Added on April 15, 2015 Last Updated on April 16, 2015 Authorsamanthaashley_Nashville, TNAboutI'm stuck in a world where I can't figure out CAPTCHA but I can understand neuroscience. more..Writing
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