INTRODUCTION

I

 loved. And for the first time, I didn't regret. I  loved, loved like never before. Despite knowing that he doesn't love me back. But I loved, just like I said. I really loved. Thinking about him was truly painful. And that was the worst part of my love. But, when you love someone, you don't need that love back. It would be desirable, but not necessary.

I met Kevin when I was 15. He came on vacation in my town, so I accidentaly met him. „He's ugly.“ I told my friend when I saw Kevin for the first time. „Are you nuts?“, she yelled at me. „Look at him! Just-look-at-him!“, it looked like she was mad. But, on the double take he wasn't that ugly. I didn't want to admit that. „He's still ugly. No changes.“, I said with mischievous smile. At first sight I couldn't imagine that he'll change my life forever, that he'll change me. Despite his amazing brown hair, his beautiful smile and entire face, I noticed his eyes. Those eyes were the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life.  Those green eyes. Shining, emerald eyes, magnificent as he was. I was lost in his eyes. So lost. Whenever I looked at his deep green eyes, deep as endless fields of green I've lost myself. It was magical. And whenever I scurtinized his amazing face, I was lost. His caramel hair seemd the most softest hair on the planet. Each hairstrand was shining and its light was stinging my eyes. First time we met,  from behind the door an emerald green eyes stared on. Little by little, I could see a pallid complexion of a soft and feminine chin. His most glorious feature, defined cheeks that I find hard to forget. There before me, I saw a beautiful boy. Boy I'll never forget. His voice was low and gentle, almost hypnotic. And whenever he spoke his words were silencing the night song of the cicadas. His voice was velvety smooth, pronouncing every word with perfect clarity. And again, I fell for him. And the corners of his lips hooked themselves to my heart. His smile was as if all the warm light and happiness in the world had just been taken and poured over the stars that light the night sky. Except they weren't stars, they were his teeth and they didn't light the night sky, they illuminated my soul. All that light and warmth and happiness had been poured - not onto the stars - but into my heart. It was an honestly genuine smile, full of hopes, dreams and joy. I thought he was my summer love and that feeling will pass. But, unfortunately it didn't. As the days went by, I loved him more and more. I considered that love unique. Actually, it was unique. August passed, September came. I started attending new school and it was better opportunity, I swear. I found new friends and everything would be perfect " if I didn't love him. Yes, you read it right, I loved him. As I said, I made new friends. But one was special. His name was John, he was nice to me. We used to talk a lot in school and you know how it is, I fell for him. I never stopped loving Kevin, but John made my days better. He filled the void in my heart. And, I was in love with him. Despite falling for John, I still loved Kevin. No one could replace him. Never, ever, ever. I knew that. So,few months after constant hangig out with John, accidentaly, again, I met Michael. He was tall, and thin, but not much. He wore blue cap and he was so cute. I looked at him at the breaks in school, and I won't lie, he stared at me too. So, nothing happend with him. But he helped me  to see what kind of guy John was. Ew. Well, at the end of the first year, John became really close to my best friend. I wasn't hurt. He was never mine, so he could do whatever he wanted. And that includes dating my best friend. Or being close to her. However, despite all these guys in my life, I still loved Kevin. Like, really, I loved him. And nothing could stop me. He was one and only. He still is. But at that time, I couldn't imagine what thing will be. I hoped for the best, and I got something I deserved. Hope so. I decided to let everything. One night, I cleared my head. And then, I realized: I love Kevin and I always will. John, Michael, they were just a phase. Kevin is forever.

Reviews

[A. Amos]

I always enjoy love triangles, this was good and enjoyable introduction.