Fat girl

My mother always told me
People wouldn't give me certain chances
Because I was overweight
But I have spent so much time
Trying to disprove that

I kept telling myself
"Next time"
"Well they had their reasons for leaving me out"
"They forgot to invite me to the mall with them"
"It has nothing to do with my weight"

For so long
I had hope
That maybe
Just maybe
My mother wasn't right about people

But no matter how long
 Or how hard I wished
People left me out
Abandoned me
Forgot

Because I wasn't a stick
I couldn't fit in a size 12
We couldn't share the same cloths
Which must mean I was also emotionally numb

I help out hope for people
But believe it or not
Just because i'm heavy
Overweight even

That doesn't mean i'm incapable of doing
Things
It doesn't mean
I don't get hurt
Or feel alone

Is it really too much to ask
To just be seen for me
And not seen as that fat chick
The blimp

My mother always told me the skinny girl
Would always be chosen first
Over the fat girl
In every single case

And no one
Not one person
Has
Or could disprove her theory



 

Author's Note

People don't give me any chances because I am fat and no matter how long I think people will change they never will I will always be picked last

Reviews

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

I am so proud of you to write this down , you must express the feeling of so many Fat children and people , your honestly is amazing ... sadly I can say that your mom most be right , in modern life , fatness is usually connected to un healthy life, neglected way of life that cause the fat child look like that , in reality , its not always true .... some want to get thiner, but just can't . But , I also dont understand , why you can stay fat and be happy , if you will be skinny , would you feel better.... what if you feel good now? is the fact that you are fat will make you feel bad with yourself? .... I wish you understand , that not all people love skinny girls / women (me for example).... be a good soul ... smile alot ... and your love will find you ... no matter how fat you are .. xx Yossi

[light and ashes]

The way that you are treated is not a reflection of you but a reflection of them. Treating you as if you are only a material object that they don't want tells me that they are shallow and hollow. Also that they will not ever amount to the person that you are. You are beautiful. You are not defined by what others think about you but what you think of yourself. I know its really hard but let the ones that put you down right now be your motivation to be the best person that you can be and to make you want to acheive greater things, even though a grand soul is not defined by physical achievements but by inward achievements and how you touch others lives. I know a site that I think you could benefit from: operationbeautiful.com.

[Moflo]

I do love the emotion you've put behind this piece, you can tell this is a real heartfelt write. In regards to people in general, they are awful and its very very frustrating to be in such a situation, where you know you're capable of something but shear appearance discredits that for the others, but you have talent with writing, which is more than those flimsy people can usually ever say!

[M Garcia]

Here is something that it has taken me a lifetime to figure out: f**k people. They only hurt you. What you need to do is show that you are better than they are by being more than what they see physically. Broaden your mind and your horizions. Make yourself oppourtunites that they themselves won't ever have.
Don't worry about them. Use them as Amber as suggested. People you dislike make the best cannon fodder for short stories.

[tk]

don't mind those people who judge you with your physical looks. don't let them bring you down. use them as your inspiration, like in this very beautiful poem. they may bring the worst in you, but they can also bring the best in you. continue to express your feelings through your poems. it always works.. haha! :)