lying

You should hear the way she speaks of you
The love she feels for you
The want
The desire

I sit and listen to the words she speaks
The long list of reasons
As to why
Her heart belongs to you

I sit as her friend and smile at her words
Pretending that I don't feel the same
I lie
And lie
And lie

I lie to her about not caring about you
I lie to myself
When I say you are a jerk
And It could never work

You should see her eyes light up
At the very mention of your name
I sit and watch her glow with delight
As I sink down to the depths

I watch our friend tease her about her affections
I laugh with the group
But cry when i'm alone
No one knows how I feel

I walk away in the dark cold mist of the night
And tell myself over
And over
And over again

"I don't care about you".....

As always
I will lie to not only the ones I Iove
But to myself as well

Author's Note

skip to 35 for the song it's wonderful!

Reviews

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokhar..]

Full of emotions ...Sometime we never tell what we have in mind...and these un-shared feelings drives us mile away...Unspoken words, Unheard Melodies and Unseen touches ...Sarah ! You are full of vivacity though your poems shows that you have many feelings in you that you seldom share...Will love to read those feelings as poem...great going..:) Keep on delighting :)

[Audrey Howitt]

This poem is full of the pent up feelings of love and loss--Really well done!

[Barbara Lynne]

very emotional...filled with deep feelings...great read!

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that is really emotive writing..we all succumb at times to lying..but really you at not lying to yourself as your poem clearly shows..the first steps to healing is healing yourself..

[David Michael]

I like the first three stanzas. Great use of words and repetition, I feel. Definite maturity of writing compared to some earlier poems, as I've previously commented. After the first three, they get a little bit less interesting. Though the seventh one brings some of that back, and the lone line the follows really has power.

[Sweets]

Great Great Great poem :)

[Sleeping Maiden]

Awwww...this is such a heart-breaking poem Sarah!! Your pain flows through the words. And I can definately relate to this poem. it pulls at my heart because I've had this experience many times where I had to lie not loving someone when I truely love them to the point its torture. So deep and such a powerful piece. I love this so much!
And don't worry, you will definately find someone dear! It truely takes time.. But cherish the moments you have. =) Love will find its way again. Amazing write! Wonderful! Keep on writing!

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Emotional, perplexed and an excellent use of wording, well done

[Rikkevi Rue]

well all these emotions sort of come at one like a storm, you have such intensity my dear!
and i think the way you have crafted this is excellent!

[M Garcia]

Excellent write, Sarah. There is such raw emotion in this poem. You will be someone's first choice. Takes time and you're still in your teens. It will all work out.