Brother

You're my brother
My flesh and blood
I have lived with you for years
And people tell me I am supposed to love you

And I have tried
I have tried to laugh at the pain you caused me
I have tried to ignore the emotional abuse
I have tried to love you

But it's hard to do
When you make me feel worthless
You torture me
Tell me that everything I do is stupid

People tell me what a great guy you are
People tell me I should miss you when you're off at school
They always tell me how lucky I am
But they don't know what you have done to me over the years

You never let me forget that I am heavy
You never let me forget that I am not academically smart
You never let me forget all the mistakes I have made in my life
You'll never let me forget

You always had a way to make me feel useless
You always were able to turn everyone against me
You always knew how to hurt me
You always knew how to make me cry

You always hit me just where it hurt
You took my pain
And insecurity
And used it for your own sick pleasure

As a small child
I looked up to you
I wanted to always be around you
But now I just want you to stay where you are

Far far far far away

Author's Note

My ass hole of a brother is comeing home for break and he is such as ass but he is my parents angle child, he tortures me and some how is able to make my family join him in torturing me.

Reviews

[HereWithoutYou<3]

Yeah, I get how you feel. I am the youngest of four girls. They never make me forget about anything. And right now I just want to get away from my family because of the suffering I've gone through living with them. But somehow I can't part myself from them. I just try to keep going when everything is tough.

[JanieB]

Well written.
Tough when families don't get on. Be the strong one though, don't let him bully you or belittle you anymore. He's the one who is insecure, and has issues, not you. Just walk away from any physical or mental abuse. Let him deal with his own issues.

[Inci 2]

don't worry about ur brother.. when u r angry then come to writerscafe to write a poem and u'll find solace :)

[Cafe Reader]

Great emotional expression. I'm sorry about the situation.

[RosieB]

I looked at his picture, Sarah. I see no love in those eyes. He is not a nice person. There is something wrong there. Something bruised and broken and unkind. It is not good. Be careful. How old are you? Can you leave there? It is not a good place for your heart. You need room to grow in love and peace. I was sad too as a young girl. Be careful in your choices as you get older. Follow the feelings in your gut. If alarms go off inside you, run the other way. We instinctively know what is best. We just dont always listen to the alarms. :)

[Brook Hughes]

I'm sorry about your brother. mine is the same way but he's a year younger than me. I can't tell you how many times he has been locked up in a detention center for what he's done to me. Butm god dealt him to me so I have to live with him. Great write!

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can't choose your family...

[Sunny Skye]

wow! i'm sorry to hear that about your brother thank god i don't have a brother like that but i have a sis like that so i know exactly of how you feel.

[Milly's Journal]

I am so very sorry you are going through this with your brother. I don't understand why a family member, especially someone who is supposed to be close to you as a brother ends up tearing you down and ripping you apart instead of loving you and being the brother he should be. He must have something inside hurting him that is causing him to show it outwardly to you..like he is blaming you for his pain. Just remember it's nothing you did wrong and there is nothing wrong with you and it's not your fault. Hang in there. You are not alone! {{{HUGS}}}

[Calypso]

Hugs. I'm so sorry that your brother hates you. He may think your worthless, but your an amazing poet and author. That's something I bet he could never be.