Memory

All affection for you is gone
My heart no longer races when I see you
I no longer feel the need to seek your approval

But the memories still exist
They still come rushing back
Whenever we are in the same room

I can't help smile
When good memories come to my mind

I can't help feeling sad
When the memory of your betrayal haunts my thoughts

I no longer wish to please you
I don't get upset when you don't speak to me
I no longer put your happiness first

But I can't help remembering a time when I did
When you were my world
And the thought of losing you broke my heart

But at the same time
My heart still sinks
Every time I remember all your broken promises

I don't love you anymore
I don't care what you do
Or say

But I don't think the memory of you
Will ever fade

Author's Note

I just had a thanksgiving dinner with my ex and it was almost nice but still can't let myself take my guard down with him. Let me know what you think

Reviews

[Marie Harrison]

That must have been difficult to have dinner with him. Sometimes the no contact rules is the best policy. In any event, your poem is an excellent example of how it takes the heart a while to catch up with the mind when it comes to falling out of love. It is a process that we all must endure from time to time. Thankfully new love will refill us all.

[the_stoic]

memories will never fade but perhaps with time new ones will share the space in your heart .. nicely put down .. keep writing

[Wondering Mind]

the memory won't fade, but more pleasant memories will come to push it further back where it won't affect too much.