Memory

All affection for you is gone
My heart no longer races when I see you
I no longer feel the need to seek your approval

But the memories still exist
They still come rushing back
Whenever we are in the same room

I can't help smile
When good memories come to my mind

I can't help feeling sad
When the memory of your betrayal haunts my thoughts

I no longer wish to please you
I don't get upset when you don't speak to me
I no longer put your happiness first

But I can't help remembering a time when I did
When you were my world
And the thought of losing you broke my heart

But at the same time
My heart still sinks
Every time I remember all your broken promises

I don't love you anymore
I don't care what you do
Or say

But I don't think the memory of you
Will ever fade

Author's Note

I just had a thanksgiving dinner with my ex and it was almost nice but still can't let myself take my guard down with him. Let me know what you think

Reviews

[Marie Harrison]

That must have been difficult to have dinner with him. Sometimes the no contact rules is the best policy. In any event, your poem is an excellent example of how it takes the heart a while to catch up with the mind when it comes to falling out of love. It is a process that we all must endure from time to time. Thankfully new love will refill us all.

[Geralyn Miller]

Let no one say else, it is possible to hurt someone so badly, so many times, you kill love. And that is a Karma crime of the first degree, killing love. When only the memory of the pain remains, it is time to let them go; which is difficult if you are related or have children in common.
You have written a work that tells of the death of love in powerful, yet beautiful, form.

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goodness...u have captured love&losses biography,
indeed nothing (love/sadness~good&bad is never
completely a lost memory.very incitefull.

[YYPSNicoletse]

Good poem!

[HopelesslyDevoted]

ouch, thats extremely awkward. sorry you had to do that. i was going to come, but i just... couldn't. you understand why i think.
its a great poem though. i know how you feel, i kind of think the same thing whenever i see you know who.

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some things take time to heal..I am sure you will...You have your guard up because thats how you feel..listening to your feelings is the best as you are in line with your soul..

[Adrien Hupp]

i think it explains so much and that it's a beautiful poem lol:D

[JanieB]

Well done.

[Cheyenne]

Been there done that.... Im only 14 but things happen.. Great poem

[nono]

Very nice, it's amazing. It's understandable. Nice job. I like how you wrote about something true. I think it's best you don't let your gaurd down, but then again I'm 13 and don't pay attention to that relationship crap. Very nice job. I love it. Your poem tells a lot of truth.

[Intern'l Shultzfeather]

Dear Sarah, I very much liked your lost affection play, with the lost emotion involved, traces in memory that hold you, well represented, continued upset, realization bubbles a dancing poem. Nice job Ms. Willingham