i'm not dead

this one actually was about a suicide attempt by me many years ago, i hope no one else try to do anything like i did,theres so many more reasons to live than there is to die

and I,i feel like i can't surrvive
there must be some kind of god to get me through this
and i,i feel like i can't hold on
i'm alive there must be a god
i'm not dead

my whole world came crashing down
nothing seems to work
everything just fails me
deep inside my heart i've given up
in to deep to hard to try
theres something more to this
evil thoughts in my head
i must be dead
i can't control it
deep inside my head
looking for the easy way out
i think i just might have found it
find the loaded gun put it to my head
pull the trigger i'm not dead
the only reason i'm alive is
there must be some kind of god
i'm not dead

and I,i feel like i can't surrvive
there must be some kind of god to get me through this
and i,i feel like i can't hold on
i'm alive there must be a god
i'm not dead

look deep into my eyes
i've seen the other side
it's burning it's dark it's ugly
i won't go down that path
i've seen the light above
i've been saved from the dark
it's taken me by the hand
gave me the strength to stand
i should be dead
there must be some kind of god

deep inside my heart
i've replaced the hate with light
no more need to destroy myself
i just needed a faith to save me from the dark
now i look to the sky
and i see i'm alive

and I, i feel alive
there must be some kind of god
and i,i feel like i'm okay
i'm alive there must be a god
i'm not dead

 

Reviews

[Lizanne]

A lyrical writing of traveling down a very dark and forboding path. Searching for a way out only to find light and a way to enter into life instead of death. You're very talented pen wrote an autobiography of being lost and then finding yourself. A skillful writing of the darkness one can go through and yet survive. Thank you for sharing your experience in such an artistic work of word artistry. Your work has great depth and speaks to the reader from start to finish. Keep the talented pen moving, it has much to say.

[Laura Nikkinen]

yeah, i can see this as a song, there are just a few things I WOULD tweak, doesn't mean you have to, that's why i'm not gonna elaborate on them unless you want me to, but yeah, that was good.

[Katie]

I am so sorry to hear you had to go through such a ugly dark experience. This was a beautiful poem and could be a really cool song. You are very talented.

[QuietPoet]

Wow, this was intense. I liked it, but very deep. I hope you dont feel like this anymore.

[Milinda_Moon]

I like the poem.Very deep feeling...I tried the same thing tho with a knife, and many, many, other things.There is more to live for.I like it.Very good work!