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I sit here motionless

The air is thick and heavy

I can barely breathe

I’m gasping for air

My lungs fill up with sadness instead 

I try to cry

But I am numb

I have no emotion

I’m like a robot

I forget what its like

To genuinely smile or laugh

Its late I say

I glance at the clock

It reads 3:08 a.m

I lay down

My chest feels heavy like bricks

My breathing is uneasy

I can hear my heartbeat through my ears

Will it ever stop

Will it ever end

I hate this pain

Why is being alive causing me so much grief

I’ll lay here

For awhile longer

But only until the pain is too hard to bear

{h.w}