I

I wanted the pain to show

Wanted the memory

A scar

A nightmare

A dream

A fantasy

A hope

A death

A faith

A love

A life

Etched into my skin forever

 

So people would understand

So you would, have to face it

Each and every time you saw me

 

You could see the pain

you wrought

The pain

you brought

Down upon me

 

The faith was crushed

Then resurrected

Day after day

month

after month

Time after time

To begin and die again

 

I see this now

You don't know what you want

 

You can't decide

more? or not enough?

pain, immense pleasure, happiness

or nothing

NOTHING

 

I wanted this life

This love with you

but you need to pull

Your own weight too

 

I can't do this all on my own

Can't salvage all that was thrown

 

I love you

I miss you

Come home