A Part of Me

I wonder why,

Why am I like this,

I wonder why,

Why does a part of me,

wanted to be dead for good,

But why does another part of me,

Screaming and wanting to live?

Somehow,

I wanted to be dead because I should've die long time ago,

But again,

I wanted to live,

I wanted to live to spend my lifetime with you,

I wanted to go to university, achieve my dream, be happy,

I wanted to hold your hand and spend my time with you,

I wanted to live so I can be a good man for you,

I wanted to live so I can love you as much as I can in this life,

I want to live