i swear

A Poem by Ryn

this one is a late night poem that i wrote in around 15 mins. i think it still needs work, but it's 2 am and i have decided to post it. (also if you know whether roofs is rooves (plural) plz lemme kno

-i swear i only meant to do this to myself.
night after night the pages are stained with regret, the rain never stops falling in my head and on the streets; i only hope the sun shines wherever you are. oh how i wish i told you how much i loved you before you left.
night after night the pages are filled with the way it felt to touch your skin every morning. it was so comforting to know that i didnt have to be afraid of the world outside our door. oh how i wish i had kissed you more often.
night after night the pages are stained with tears of better days, i swear i meant it when i said id never forget you. oh how i wish you had meant it too.
night after night the pages are stained with rage that built from the day i drove too fast the other way, sometimes i imagine what it would be like if i had laid down on the couch instead of drinking too much of your alcohol in the garage. oh how i wish you came home earlier.
night after night pages are filled with words left unsaid, i swear i thought we would be forever, i never saw the day we would sleep under seperate roofs, but we still sleep under the same sky, and i guess thats the only thing keeping me going. oh how i wish i would have known that slowly destroying myself would break you into pieces.
night after night the pages are stained with pieces of me, im sorry for hating every inch of my being, but darling you are all i have. oh how i wish we could fall back together instead of falling on the floor late at night because i remembered the way it felt to watch you laugh. i swear i could stay forever in your arms, just please dont leave. please come back. i swear ill try and love myself like i love you, darling i know now how hard it was watching me burn. oh how i wish for nothing but you, and i dont know what else to do except stain this notebook with memories of you.-