There I Was.

I was trying to remember the whole story and I just noticed that I know every kind of detail from every little part and when I talk about it I still feel all the emotions and feelings.

        Just a normal teenager, waiting for my life to have a big future and a big reason to be.

And he , more than an ordinary guy, a perfect kind of one.

        I saw him for the first time in a summer camp, it was really dark, it should be really late; after midnight because I remember that my trip took really long. I was visiting someone and he was the first person I saw, literally. 

        I walked into a room and I talked with the person I was visiting, I was inside for more than two hours but I don't remember a single thing she told me. When I left I remember looking to my right side and I saw someone eating a bowl of chocolates, I don't know who he was, but I like to think it was him, maybe because in that moment the stars were shinning so bright or maybe because my hands started shaking, I don't know but in that moment everything seemed to stop until someone called me and said it was time to go. I left. 

        I was driving home and I stopped the car near to a river, I was looking to the sky, and it was all dark, I have to say it was a little scary but I was enjoying that moment, everything seemed to be in someone's control.

        Days later, I kept thinking about him, I tried to figure out who he was, where he lived, where he used to be but I had nothing. I stopped caring about it, maybe it wasn't that good to think about.

        I moved on with my life, I met this guy from my college, he wasn't exactly what I wanted for my life but I was feeling so alone and he made me feel really worthy, so I decided to move forward with him.

        We weren't the kind of couple who were always kissing, hugging and all those cute things, I guess we were more like close friends but i didn't want to tell him that because I didn't want to hurt him and I was feeling special with him.

        We were together for almost a month and we decided to go out, it was so cold so we were having a cup of coffee at Starbucks; everything was going fine, we were having a good time and then, I turned my head and I saw him, I saw him, I saw the guy I tried not to think about, I saw the guy who made my world turn upside down.

        I think I kind of froze in that moment, and when things couldn't get any weirder, my date looked at him and said him "hi", I couldn't believe it, I didn't know what to do so I followed my date, I couldn't take my eyes of him, he was so spiritual, he made me believe everything was possible. He was with a girl; my date told me they knew each other from school when they we're younger and introduced me to the girl who was with him. I don't know why but I just didn't want to know if she was his girlfriend, I just couldn't stop looking at him, he was sending me a positive vibe, he was making me feel so full, so whole just by looking at him. He was completely out of normal; he was making me see the world in a completely different perspective. And I'm almost sure he was feeling the same way.

        And there we were, I was with my date, he was with his date, and we were looking at each other like there was no one else there. I kind of blacked out and I just came to reality when my date told me we should go. I went but in my heart the feeling was the same: I didn't want to go.

        I was so confused, I didn't know what to do, I was still dating but for some reason, I didn't want to be.

        A few days later, I heard that the guy broke up with the girl he was with when we met him at Starbucks.

         I felt like that was something to call me up, I needed to do something, let's be real, I didn't love my date, I couldn't stop thinking about that guy for so long, my date was already thinking that something was wrong with me, I needed to move on.

        And I did. I moved on. I told my date I didn't want to be with him. He completely understood, he knew it, I didn't treat him like a "boyfriend". And I started looking for that guy I didn’t know the name. Guess I don't have to tell you for how long, ok really long... years... and years... 

        Before I can close this story, I just wanted you to know that... I did found him. And there I was, in his arms, looking into his forest green eyes, content with the world and no worries on my mind.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

It was a good story. Sometime we must hope for a good ending. Can happen. I like the way you described the friendship and how you found a happy ending. We need good friends to give us balance. Thank you for sharing the excellent story.

Coyote

[Rute Santos]

Thank you :)

[M.E.Lyle]

This sounds more like a fairy tale than reality, but I suspect it's more real than it sounds. I never thought I would be glad about being so old. Going through all those emotional things younger folk have to go through is just too hard. It's a great piece of work though. You express your feeling quite well. A few errors here and there, but not too bad.

[Rute Santos]

Thank you very much. :)