Thoughts of You.....

A Poem by ruskaya90

My feelings and emotions about the love of my life who hurt me in ways that still affect me today...

Darkness, sadness, loneliness, emptiness, memories, flashbacks, pain, sorrow, what-ifs, whys, all linger within me.....

What to do to escape this prison of pain I'm in..your smell, your smile, each make up a bar of the cage that this heartbreak has put me in....

Why can't this love for you just be erased from my heart the way you erased me...Is my fate sealed with thoughts of you and nothing more?

Years, days, hours, minutes, seconds go by...all tainted by your presence in my heart and mind ....my soul cries, tears collect, each day a struggle....will I ever go back to living instead of just getting by....

Do you think of me as i think of you or have you just moved on....have you gone to a place so far away, a place where i will never find you? will this distance between us ever fade away......will it ever be the same...

All I have are questions, but I get no answers...vacuous days and nights......misery, anger, and confusion......this is all i am left with besides thoughts of you.