A Mask of Diamond

I remeber how with the changes of days

And seasons

And years to pass

I found my surroundings were not the only things changing.

I too was changing... or should I say, adapting

Learning to live in a lie I worked so hard to make believable.

Waking up in the morning with a dreaded yearning to be happy

So...

I made myself happy

I walked out of the house each morning with my second face...

A mask of sorts, filled with smiles and enthusiastic laughs

All of which had faded so long ago.

I would go through the day and not a single person would see through the mask

Because I built it that way...

Hours of tears and blood

Constant emotional turmoil to build myself a mask

Of DIAMOND...

Nothing could scratch it...

Nothing could TOUCH it...

It was beautiful...

Because I made it that way...

Yet still, at the end of the day

I'd walk through that front door, and place that mask on it's shelf with a sigh of relief...

And go about my business being the same person I'd always known myself to be....

Author's Note

A review i just posted... altered of course. That I felt was so nicely worded it deserved its own place.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

i remember the day when i first read your words ,it was that long away..
how strange,i could never tell what i was feeling then,i could only tell about now
like you..i have to pull a mask all days long ,sometimes i forgot how my real face did really look like
i pulled always a long laugh when my heart was so tight and could hardly pull a breath
i would always put that silly smile for all and hiding all inside..what did i fear
is it showing that glamour all around is what all would want..i hardly believe
i think i am a mask among so many others,how tragic..you cant show what you like
you will have to wear like others,like how they feel its never really like about me
i was always just a mirror,i was always a coward ,you always hide ,behind..
lovely write..

[The Red Queen]

You'll never know how much I miss you.
I hope you find me one day.

[Early November]

Heyy this was that review you gave me. I find that in comparison with mine, your's had more emotion and feel to it. And you're right, the review deserved it's own place.

[Pebbles]

This is a brilliant write Tessa, funny how we spend so much time hiding behind masks, trying to make believe to the rest of the world that everything is ok .. ive put mine away in the cupboard as i have no use of masks anymore . :)