Ripped up, And dragged down

Forced to be old in age, be alone with feelings that haunt me every day.

Pushed down to my knees, threatened to open my mouth.

As he put his hard penis in my face i jerked away in disgust.

My attempt failed as he yanked my head in. 

He shoved it in to my mouth as I cried for someone to help but my plead was never heard,

he jerked me around and put my face to the ground, 

my fear overwhelming me to where i couldn't say a word.

Tears running down my face, making me feel as I were alone

to this monster behind me.

He tells me that I better enjoy this. 

I closed my eyes because I couldn't believe what was about to happen. 

Stinging pain went everywhere. Gripped tight. Choked me.

My heart bleeding, my soul pleading. 

The lights grew dim and noises became fuzzy. 

The tame was terminal; the feeling of never being the same.

Back and forth with a hand over my mouth to spill no words.

My scream was muffled. My cry scattered.

He pulled out and spat in my face and I lay alone crying as he left.

There was no one. There is no god. There are no angles. Just the devil, 

playing with my fear, playing with my weakness. 

And now the things that I remember are the scar's upon my soul.

And the blood filled memories that shatter my mind every day, to where

I know Im alone. And am left alone.

Author's Note

I dont regret what happened to me because it made me who i am, This is my story and my life haunting's

Reviews

[samantha munning]

i can honestly say ik how u feel. but what doesnt kill u makes u stronger. and all u can do is look to the future and hope it wont ever happen again. it hurts and its hard but speakin from the heart is all u can do when it comes to this