katrinaA Poem by rosieectpoems from my notes app // Sept 2017
i feel like a caterpillar,
trapped in a poorly formed chrysalis
not entirely sure which way is left or right or what I'm going to be when i get out all my life i have followed the orders of other people and never made a decision for myself a self-fulfilling cycle of sacrifice- f**k me over- sacrifice in a desperate attempt to prove to my mother i am good, i am not selfish you tell me, rosie, you need to make these choices for yourself make decisions for yourself, you're an adult now but i don't know what these decisions mean i don't know what i want i don't know if i am the butterfly, or the tiger moth. you tell me i can take a year off school walk across spain, get a tattoo to "find myself" like i'm a sixteen year old in bali drunk off cheap wine my mother tells me i need to graduate change my path to fit her will and isn't it terrible her mother never let her make her own choices? and it confuses me so i don't get out of bed and i forget to wash my hair so everybody loses © 2017 rosieect |
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Added on September 17, 2017 Last Updated on September 17, 2017 Tags: poem, recovery, healing, depression, sacrifice, growing up AuthorrosieectNew ZealandAboutkind of sad, trying to get over it. not 100% sure if poetry is something I'm good at or not. more..Writing
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