Porcelain

It's 2:30 AM, and I'm in a foreign place.
It's too quiet and too loud, all at once.
The train passes and I feel relief
Until it's almost too much to bear.

Even louder are my wonderings.
Who am I?
Some nights I feel like a spring-time deluge,
But others I am a cool summer breeze.

When I was young, I was a china doll.
I wore a painted smile and the finest lace,
with my hands folded in my lap.
My eyes of glass saw wicked things
Of which my time-worn lips can not share.

Although I've aged, not much has changed. I'm stuck in my stone-cold porcelain ways
of sitting still and trying to look pretty.

Maybe that's why I can't look you in the eyes when we make love.
I know all too well that I was designed to be played with,
So your affection is too good to be true.

Or perhaps it's because my lace and good manners can't beautify the deed,
Because sex isn't pretty.
It's instinctive, animalistic, and full of passion
All of which I was taught to avoid.

Passion is the worst of these three.
It has led to war, death, and love.
Love is the worst of these three
Because it has caused me to dive off of my shelf.
All I can hope for is to remain un-shattered
And replace my chipped skin and faded paint
With something more durable.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard and powerful words shared dear Rosie. We must taste dirt to write the truth.
"All I can hope for is to remain un-shattered
And replace my chipped skin and faded paint
With something more durable."
I believe I lost my true face too. Maybe I can find? The above lines. So damn good and thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Chris Shaw]

The stone cold porcelain ways need to go. Wake up and live before it is too late. Excellent poetry.

Chris

[X]

Hauntingly beautiful! Break the porcelain facade and feel the passion flow...live! Really enjoyed it!

[wordman]

time to wake up and experience life as it`s meant to be

[Wild Rose]

The porcelain dolls are really meant as ornaments

I would imagine being passive lovers
Not taking an active part
Just in case their paint was chipped
Showing the real person inside