I'm Left in the Dark

I will not cause more heartache

I will not be like you

You can’t tempt me down that path

Because it has been my hell

 

I will not let despair cloud my judgment

Nor pride close my mind

I will not make your mistake

For I have felt the consequence

 

I’ve stumbled through life

Without a guide

I’ve learned the hard way

That I can never let the same happen

 

Because of you

I am afraid of the dark

Because of you

I learned to steel my heart

 

Because of you

I never put down my wall

Because of you

I’m left in the dark

 

I cannot see clearly

The path ahead

And you don’t hesitate

To tell me I’m lost

 

All I want

Is a smile, a laugh

A sign of approval

A sign of love

 

I will shed no tears

Because I know you scorn such weakness

I go through everyday

Faking smiles and forcing laughter

 

All I did

I did to make you proud

I would gladly throw my life away

If it be in your service

 

But I keep wondering

If you would care

If you would mourn

The way you are mourning now

 

I am no longer a whole

But my heart will not break

Because it was shattered

Right from the beginning

 

Because of you

I stayed at the outskirts of this world

Because of you

I was never more than a shadow

 

Because of you

I cannot open my heart

Because of you

I’m left in the dark

 

I saw you in your grief

I knew what it did to you

I saw the tears you tried to hide

It hurt me more than it hurt you

 

You seek forgiveness

And I would give it to you

But despair consumed you

Before I could reach out a hand

 

You are much like me

We will forever be haunted by the memory

The memory of one whom we love

The one we lost

 

You are sorry

You think that it’s your fault

Perhaps it was

But you don’t deserve to suffer

 

I was too young

To face the world alone

You were wrong

To leave me be

 

You never thought of

How I was hurting

All you felt

Was your own pain

 

So now my heart

Cries tears of blood

I’m torn down

By the very same thing

 

I care, too

Maybe you don’t

Think it important

But I care, too

 

Because of you

I try to forget the agony

Because of you

I can never bare my heart

 

I cannot bear to live my life

Because it’s worthless

Because of you

I’m left in the dark

 

I’m left in the dark

Author's Note

Another character tribute...I STILL won't tell you who it's tributed to, muahahahahahahahahahahahaha! If you can guess, cookies to you! If you provide your guess I may, I repeat, only MAY tell you if you got it right. :D No personal hints either *glares pointedly at Aeternal Oceanfire*

Anyway, this poem is from a combined inspiration from *secret*'s life story and Because of you, by Kelly Clarkson. Really, I recommend you listen to that song. It's my favorite song ever, and it's pop, and that's saying a LOT!

Reviews

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

We learn from our mistakes and well as learning from others mistakes, but we shouldn't make us gun shy cause our aim maybe truer then theirs.

[Daniel]

Awww, no hints? No fun! Anyway, you do really have good writing, James always forces me to read it and yup she's right. :)