The Last One for Her

Had to stop writing poems about my ex, so this was her last one.

I can't think properly, you're always in my head.
Weighing me down everyday - heavier than lead.
You'll pop into my mind, which I'll try to erase.
Infinite imprintation of your beautiful face.
Discussion is in session of throwin' these dreams.
Progression of this lesson, is dyin' is no ease.
The laughter in your noise was like a sweet song.
Calming me down like nothing could ever go wrong.
Take me to the city where the lights will always shine.
Take me away from problems so our hearts can align.
Take me to the place where the love used to be.
Take me away to the place where it was just you and me.
Steal me away in time where "sorry" is not fake.
And put me in time when you loved me for goodness sake.
Steal me away in time when you just walked away.
And put me in time when we first met that one day.
I'll love you more than ever , but then you'll never know.
But I'll be the only one to know this love ain't so-so.
The only thing keepin me goin is the hope that you'll come back.
Reality says slim chance, so I get a slight heart attack.
Come set me free from this nightmare you made.
If I need to pay my dues, then they've already been paid.
Pay my conscience a visit everytime I'm alone.
Bringin better times when you'd sneak me in your home.
But it's all done. It's over. It's clear.
Like a finished play, my life's like King Lear.
Don't worry bout me because I'll get through.
Till I find a better girl who's better than you.
But how is that so when I'll just miss you even more?
To get away from things that you seem to adore.
Cut the suffocation that you've wrapped around my neck.
Freshest moments ever, for they are not pre-select.
Wake me from my sleep because I dream too deep.
And put me in your sweet dreams at night when you're asleep.
You're the only cure I have from confusion. Lay me down.
Escape from this illusion. But please don't make a sound.
Silent words are hushed when you whisper in my ear.
Pull your body close to mine. This temptation's clear.
A fragment of your emotion has hidden something splinter.
A fragment of your emotion is as cold as passing winters.
The mass of my emotion is a fraction of your soul.
The mass of my emotion represents the love you stole.
I'll take these things back like a thief in the dark.
No more geese. No water in the river, or the park.
No more memories or these thoughts in my head.
Over thinking things until I realize I'm brain-dead.
Don't hide behind the things that your tears will create.
By the time you come around, I'll be gone. Checkmate.
Yes, this is a game of chess, so take your pieces.
But look at your heart and observe all the creases.
So long has the time been for us to part ways.
But you've known the end and you've counted the days.
You've realized these things before I could get a chance.
Wager my whole life for another shot of romance.
Please take up your eyes and point them to the sky.
Close your eyes and think. Do you know if I'm alive?
Whisked away at night to reunite the one he's lost.
Caught for sneaking out - love was stronger than the cost.
There once was an Adam. There once was an Eve.
The yin to his yang. All his pain she would relieve.
"But I keep climbing in hopes things will change.
But the water from the rain washes progress away."
Then October 23 this unfortunate event.
That day you'd detatched me to all extent.
I just don't know how this fire turned to ash.
And how the love was once the future, the present. But now the past.
They say you'd give your all to have that loved one back.
Couldn't give away my air, for without her my breaths would lack.
Do you remember how we'd smile when we'd stare face to face?
Just before I pulled down something that was trimmed with lace.
Did you keep the notes on the days I missed you?
Or did you rip them away on the day we were through?
Do you still think of me when you crave a real kiss?
Or crave the sensation when I'd take you further feeling bliss?
I could go on forever asking questions from this list.
But I know the answers "no" just cuz we no longer co-exist.
Of course we can't be together cuz you're no longer here.
I can no longer be the one to catch all your salty tears.
When you walked out of my life, we were both on crossroads.

Take away the knife. Would we be togther? God knows.
Could I ever be better than the rest and all those?
Or better than the past to all the other ones you chose?
I realize out past is filled with affliction.
Brought along in our pictures. You stare at me with conviction.
And so now my soul is ridden with guilt.
Cuz I destroyed everything you worked so hard to build.
You gave me many chances and I just wasted away.
Can I even explain? I don't got much to say.
You gave me happiness and I just pushed it aside.
Approaching me slowly and I would defiantly hide.
You're the reason why I smiled more than before.
A smile is something ancient to me which I try to explore.
I can never wrap it up and put it into words.
Nothing's ever perfect and everything sounds absurd.
Until I find the right words that I want to say to you.
Just keep in mind these three words.
I Miss You...