Bittersweet Happiness

"Lately, I've been, I've been thinking I want you to be happier. I want you to be happier"

I know I have to let you go

I know it's the right thing

If this is what will bring you joy

Then, for you, I'll take the sting

I don't want to let you go

This hurts a goddamn ton

We had built a home together

But this home was built for one

So now I have to watch you leave

Watch you walk right out the door

I hope you find your happiness

And maybe back to me once more

We were to wed one autumn day

You were to be my wife

Destined to be many things

Just not have you in my life

I hope you reach your goals

And I hope you reach them soon

I want to see you smile more

From the dark side of this moon

So despite the fact I long for you

I know I shouldn't hope

For maybe you'll meet another man

It's a thought that makes me choke

But who am I to say

How you'll live your life so free

Gladly give you happiness

And I'll take all misery

This bittersweet emotion

Is a curse without a doubt

Watch you spread your wings and fly

But it's you I can't live without

 

Author's Note

I haven't written many poems lately, so I thought I'd give writing another try.
I am in the process of losing the one I thought I'd share my life with, and the feeling is unbearable. I had forgotten how therapeutic writing can sometimes be.