All I Want

All I Want


I am afraid of getting sick.
I am afraid of having to stay inside all the time in my bed.
I am afraid that I will lose all my friends.
I am afraid that my friends will be scared of me because I am sick.
I am even scared my friends will think they can catch this cancer from me.

I am afraid of losing my hair.
I am afraid of all those chemicals the doctors are giving me.
I am afraid that my life will end in pain.
I am afraid that my brain is going to stop working.
I am even afraid I will never have ice cream again.

I want to get healthy again.
I want my hair to grow back.
I want to go outside and play in the sunshine.
I want I want this cancer to disappear.
I even want to taste ice cream again.

I want to ride my bicycle down to the ocean pier.
I want to have my twenty first birthday party.
I want to go shopping for new clothes.
I want to play with all my friends.

I even want to help others who have this horrible disease cancer.


Most of all!
I wish this horrible nightmare of cancer was just a bad dream.

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