Letters to Heaven

To my daughter who has disowned me.

Letters to Heaven

 

 

 

I always loved you

 

Everly Brothers “Let it be me”

 

I always loved you,

from the second you were born and before,

you were always in my heart.

 

You were my dream,

my only one,

forever and more.

 

My sweet love,

how you slept in my arms.

 

How you looked while you slept,

how you smiled in your sleep,

how you kept your room a mess.

 

All I had to do is dream of you,

and all the hardships,

were worth everything I did.

 

Date: 5/12/2015

2330 hrs

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wish I was home with my daughter

 

Simon & Garfunkel - The Boxer

 

The decisions I made,

I would make again,

for how could I not?

 

Would you ask me to be less than I am,

ask me to be less of a man than I am?

 

I know that my decisions have hurt you,

I know that what I did you might not understand.

 

I know that you might not understand the man I am,

but understand I did it all for you and the United States,

and all Americans…

 

I did it so you never had to,

and in ways that is the biggest crime of them all.

 

Because it robbed you of a father,

it robbed you of the things that everyone else had.

 

I wish I was different,

I wish I could have been a father that was there,

but I couldn't.

 

I couldn't stand by and let the evils of the world,

hurt the United States of America,

nor allow them to come close to the ones I love.

 

How could I be your father and allow that to happen?

 

So I did what I did,

to try and stop it all.

 

How foolish I was to think that anything I ever did,

made a difference.

 

So hate me for what I tried to do,

hate me for the time I allowed to separate us.

 

But I will never regret that what I did was to try and protect you,

and my family.

 

Hate me for that.

 

Date: 5/12/2015

2345 hrs

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[s y e]

I hope you and your daughter can work things out.
Sometimes it takes time, maybe don't push. Let her come to you.

Poignant write Ron. Touched my heart.

[ron]

Thank you Sye. She has written me out of her life. In truth I think she is better without me; how much of a father could I have been when I let her down?

[s y e]

You didn't let her down. You thought you were doing her well.

[ron]

Thank you Sye. But I do feel like I let her down.

[Sheila Kline]

Certainly a hard pill to swallow! I hope you and your daughter can resolve your differences!

[ron]

Thank you Sheila. It has been devastating.