And why

And why

 

 

 

In the house of the rising sun there are,

many a wicked words spoken.

 

Spoken under the protection of the government.

 

I am not one to speak out against,

my government.

 

But for love of all is holy and right,

tell me, oh please tell me the truth.

 

Now this might seem like a Woodstock affirmation,

but it’s not.

 

It’s nothing more than a soldier,

who wants to know the truth,

the truth of what is real and just.

 

Let me know that what I have done for 20 years of my life,

was worth it all.

 

Tell me that all that I have done and gone through was worth it,

tell me that 20 years of my life was worth anything,

anything at all.

 

I sit here with a back and knees that are bad,

I have problems that could only be attributed to chemical munitions,

I have a problem concentrating more than a few moments each day.

 

I would do it all again,

if I knew what I did was to keep this Nation free.

 

I would do this and more,

I would through myself,

on the alter and willingly give my life for what was right,

because that is how I was raised.

 

In the dark shadows I sit and cry,

I cry because I have been treated,

as someone who is not worth this Nations time.

 

I will sink into the shadows and if I never speak a word,

never speak a word of what I have seen or done,

I would hope it was for the good of the Nation.

 

What I have done for this Nation,

would require and top secret clearance to read.

 

Let me know it was worth,

the night mares I suffer from those nights,

those nights I can’t sleep.

 

Those nights that make me cry,

the nights that make me see…

my fellow brothers that have thrown me to the wolfs.

 

I was never a great soldier,

but I did the best I could,

I did what I thought was right.

 

I sit in the shadows of what I have done,

for that is all I have.

 

I am not worth the time,

of those that have gone before me.

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