Darkness; comfort me

This is EXTREMELY RAW...You have been warned.

Darkness;

comfort me

 

 

Be still the beating heart.

Lay waste the passion that affords desire to enter.

For the flicker of light resides deep within.

 

How many times will it try to ignite hopeless endeavors of the heart?

How many times must the flicker of light leave the safety of my darkness?

 

Moonlight once shined its warmth on me, and showed me the way through loves maze.

Now it burns the very soul of what use to be.

 

The waters no longer wash away my pain.

The waves now cut like silvery blades…clear and cold.

Deeper they cut as I relish in the pain, for it is the only feeling I am allowed.

 

I bleed slowly at first, drop by drop of searing pain.

Then; as it begins to flow like a small river, the pain transforms into pure bliss as the ecstasy of pain releases me from myself.

 

No longer bound by to feelings,

I am now free.

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

I've always tried to put myself into the shoes of those who harbour this obsession...I don't judge people negatively on it, but it is a phenomenon that I fail to wrap my mind around...you've brought incredible clarity to the subject through some haunting and amazingly visceral imagery...the first line really sets the table for what follows, and the progression from the waves metaphor to the stark realism is breathtaking...powerful words my friend, well done .

[ron]

Thank you KK. I just let my emotions run and this is what happened.

[Deandra Dawn]

I absolutely love this. So raw and honest. So completely open and vulnerable and willing to accept that which is. This is one of my favorites from you. It truly is. The way you can express every feeling, every emotion, every single breath and thought. Amazing.

[ron]

Thank you Dawn, but I'm still learning.

[Vidya Bacchus]

You bared your soul for the world to see .That takes a lot of courage. Very heart wrenching Red.

[ron]

Thank you Vidya. I have barely bared the surface.

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are welcome.If it helps perhaps you should bare some more.

[ron]

Maybe......

[Vidya Bacchus]

Yes let the baring begin lol

[ron]

Not sure if I'm ready for that.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Hmm you not up for baring all oh well in time......

[ron]

It takes a lot out of me and this one I had to stop a few times and let my emotions settle.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Well take your time.

[Frieda P]

I'm with April on this one, not dark, just real and raw, I think this might be one of your best ron....I love when there's guts left on the pages....you ended on a high note, so it's all good.

[ron]

Thank you Frieda.
Everything is just numb and useless right now.

[Frieda P]

I'm glad you were able to find a way to purge it hon....x

[AprilRN1210]

I don't think that this is extremely dark, Ron.. I think it is how those of us feel when we have had such deep, dark pain in our lives.. it is a way of survival.... the pain becomes your friend... numb to the world... that numbness sets you free but traps you at the same time, and embracing that pain can set you free.. nice, real, raw write...

[ron]

Thank you April.
I just don't know how to make it bleed.