To save me from this game

To save me from this game

 

Deeper and deeper I fall.

Through layers of tunnels, I sit in disappear.

 

Looking up I see the light.

A sight of blissful delight.

 

Endless hours of days that have numbed the years so wasted.

Hoping for a gentle hand to help me out of this pit I am wasted.

 

Do not reach for me, for this is where I am meant to be.

The true hand that can touch my soul will be the one to save me from myself.

 

Do not toy with my pain.

Do not pull me up to make me fall again.

 

See me for who I am.

I beg you to come and take me in your arms.

Reviews

[dw817]

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I hope you don't mind - but reading this reminds me of you sitting inside a rain drain looking out at the round opening of sunlight and the world beyond. I certainly hope you are in a better position than this.

When you are rescued, you may be offered to get bathed additionally with plenty of soap and I wouldn't say no. :)

[ron]

Yes I am in a better place, (a little better). i would have loved a bath.

[dw817]

I call them storms of the mind. We have a torrential downpour of emotions in our head. We grow despondent, desperate, suicidal - then - wait ... just wait a bit - and it goes away.

You may be bipolar, same as me. And - you just need to know when to recognize the signs and - stop what you are doing, and find some way to reverse it.

[ron]

I never thought of myself as bipolar.

[dw817]

Well, do you get all emotional and crying and junk for no reason ? Or do you have so many thoughts in your head it seems like there is someone talking to you and you can't see them ? I get that, it's bipolar, it's not bad. Just learn to recognize it and you gonna do just fine.

[ron]

I don't have someone talking to you and you can't see them. It's more of almost crying for no reason. It started after I figured I could not get to a war zone. I watched my buddies go and all I could do was sit on the sidelines and watch them go.

[dw817]

o.O Umm ?? You mean in the military right ? I guess lotsa people are bipolar in the military then, I hadn't thought about it.

[ron]

Its kind of survivors gilt. No voices in my head. I feel like I have trained all season to play in the rose bowl and all they need me for is to sit on the bench.

[dw817]

Oh ... did you want to fire a gun then ?

[ron]

I grew up with John Wayne and the like. No I never wanted to fire a gun at anyone. But those who need protection should have it. If some one wants to blow people up or be beheaded others, than I will do what ever I can to stop them...I am a looser for not being there to stop it.

[dw817]

It is not a crime to not to want to handle firearms. It is your right to decide what you want to do. We live in unusual times where it is deemed necessary to fire a pistol and kill others with it. And all in the name of the law.

There are a great many things I do not understand in this world, and the taking of a life, even if deemed admissible by the law, is one of them.

No, you are not a looser (loser) for not being there to stop it. However, beforehand you might consider paths taken to avoid such a confrontation. Perhaps ... Sometimes this is not possible.

But other times it is. In all my years I've only been involved in one fist fight in school. One. No-one has since ever shot at or attempted to stab me with a sharp object or blade. I credit this to, as my Dad says, having my head on a swivel, being aware of my environment, realizing what to avoid, and being as eloquent as I can in my words of mediation and peace.

Oh I might've received a great many verbal insults in my time for backing down from a fight, perhaps 10 times more than what might be deemed necessary for an individual, but I still have a whole skin to show for it.

[ron]

You have what I call street sense. Some times it takes more courage and a lot more intelligence to back down and and be diplomatic.

[dw817]

Still, I am reminded of what Ben said in the movie Barnyard. "A strong man stands up for himself. A stronger man stands up for others."

http://imdb.to/1734PIU

Where does that place me, Ron ? :)

[ron]

You are a stronger man for knowing the difference and not just saying what you believe it but actually having the courage to live it.

[dw817]

Thank you ... A lot of people might disagree. I am far from a macho man, but I think perhaps I am - a thinking man. And maybe there is a difference between the two. :7

[ron]

It takes bravery to stand by your beliefs.

[dw817]

Or timidity, one of the two. *Grin*

[Me]

I can totally relate to this one Ron,well expressed :) x

[ron]

Thank you again. I am both happy and sad that someone else can relate to this.

[RainDancer1997]

This is exactly how I feel right now!! Just wishing for someone to save me from my miserable self! Great job:)!!

[ron]

It is the worst feeling to have. I cry for the ones who feel this way. I know theys ay someone is out there waiting for you. If you want to talk I have a very good ear.

[RainDancer1997]

Thanks:) your to kind:)

[Laminators Dubai]

you are thing but pain and im think about that hight we have in our life...we dont want to lose it...
it is really a game...
thanks for sharing this write... ^^

[ron]

Thank you for rreading it. You are welcome.

[Keith]

We feel the sadness in this Ron. Longing for acceptance but is the rise worth the fall?

[ron]

Thank you Keith. I'm not sure if the risei s worth the fall sometimes.

[shallimarRose]

"Do not toy with my pain.
Do not pull me up to make me fall again."

Another emotional piece of your heart drips in ink to the tarnished pages below
.... Ron I admire so much the vulnerability of you and what you are willing to show here..
xo Rose

[ron]

Thank you rose that means a lot to me.

[shallimarRose]

you are most welcome Ron.. xo