Blushing

Blushing

 

Blushing deeper, my mind goes blank.

How odd this feeling I am having, if I am not careful, it will tear at my walls.

 

It will show who I am, it will break the mask I thought I had forgotten.

Do I dare go farther or am I just asking for something that is not there?

 

I will resign myself to words that were written in the moment.

I feel so helpless and somewhat afraid.

 

It is one of the best feelings I have had in so long.

This blushing I am feeling are only words on a wall.

 

I should know better than to ask for more.

But I love the feeling of blushing at this wall.

Author's Note

I was reluctant to put this one up.

Reviews

[FlatLineBeauty]

I think that the one you are writing about would be blushing just as deep. I think seeing the real you is intriguing to her and much deeper. I'm sure she would be curious enough to take your mask off of you and break it so you can't wear it again. Words can be hallow, but it is the intentions and feelings that they are written with. You can tell when they are real

[ron]

Thank you. My mask does not come off easily.

[shallimarRose]

"This blushing I am feeling are only words on a wall". I understand this poem.. Blushing inside is a wonderful feeling.. shallimarRose

[ron]

I use to think blushing was a weakness...but now that I write poetry I understand how blushing can show others how we truely feel.

[shallimarRose]

I think blushing is adorable especially in a man.. It shows they are real and have real feelings. Not all men do. Vulnerability is a beautiful thing to witness in a man. It touches my heart. Keep writing Ron. xo Rose

[ron]

Thank you rose. For me blushing is best done in private.

[shallimarRose]

awww, your vulnerability is showing Ronny.. best be careful.. lolol xo

[ron]

Lol... xoxo.

[Me]

Love this...felt I could relate...great read, enjoyed :) x

[ron]

Thank you very much.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

why reluctant?

we blush when someone sees into us...touches a nerve.

this poem reminds me of simon and garfunkel's "poem on the underground wall"

that part of us we are ordinarily afraid to show...sometimes we just let it out...in that moment, in that moment the pen touches the paper.

[ron]

You are a profound writer thank you.

[Sheila Kline]

It is often difficult to let another know who we really are and we become quite skilled at building those walls that take much effort to tear down. I know as I too have had them but with time have realized that in the end that mask only hides a pain that gets deeper and deeper. I hope you too shall be able to move a bit past your comfort zone, even though still blushing (and there is no harm in blushing - it's actually very appealing) to a point of being honest with your feelings. I rather think it is a fear of rejection that keeps us from letting others know exactly how we feel!
You seem comfortable to be where you are......perhaps time will change this.

[ron]

Rejection is the main reason I wear this mask, the other reason is I tend to read to much into things sometimes. Thank you for reading and your review dear sweet poet.

[Sheila Kline]

And reading more than is there is often that which happens - may I offer the advice of not wanting too much too fast so you are not hurt, and really know the person and what their motives might be as you venture further into wanting them. Please be sure it is not just being led on by the other, or infatuation....it is so very difficult to discern what we really want, and need for happiness. I would not want to see you hurt if you are rejected. Love should be kind and gentle. I take you as a gentle soul, a real gentleman - you deserve the same.

[ron]

Thank you and I will take your advise and use it as best as i can. xo

[Tate Morgan]

Denying emotions doesn't bode well for us in the end and usually leads to the darker side of human endeavor.

[ron]

Yes but for now it is all I have to keep from being hurt. thank you for reading, and yes I do agree.

[Tate Morgan]

you are welcome