the end of hurtA Poem by nayashaA silent mother-daughter bond haunted by past trauma, where enduring scars overshadow healing.i was five when i nicked my finger slicing a carrot. thirteen years and i can’t even watch my mother chop onions without getting second-hand please-don’t-lose-your-goddamn-fingers syndrome. she smirks at me with welled-up eyes. we don’t do tissues, my child. she’s afraid i’d know how to peel the onion skin off too early. so every morning she reminds me how i bled thirteen years ago. over a decade / no ghost comes closer to my grandma’s old knife i had held back then / the nightmares smell like the faint teal blue walls of the kitchen i stroll in every day. i lean on the spotless granite slab beside my mother. / i do not look at her. / i wait and wait and wait and wait / she finishes chopping like she hasn’t been doing that for eternity / she breathes out a cold volume of air"the uncanny resemblance to my whimpers of the loneliest nights gets me fidgeting with the cutting board. / i don’t speak a word though. / neither does she. that’s the horror of it- she never questions silence. but she knows her daughter has enough cuts to have lost the sense of pain. / to have learnt not to taint granite slabs / not to lose fingers in a f*****g kitchen- maybe, the end of hurt is not ‘healing’. perhaps, the end of hurt is ‘not healing’.
~nayasha
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Added on June 3, 2024 Last Updated on June 3, 2024 Tags: poetry, mother-daughter, past trauma, poem, poesy, truth, writer |