Mood

I stand there 

I know that I am there

I watch her smile 

Oh I know that smile

I think,

She is going to say something absurd to me

But I stay quiet and say nothing.

I smile back at her and say nothing

As i had made up my mind to say nothing

She starts a conversation

I totally have no idea where that is heading

I still say nothing 

Because I don't want to say anything to her.

She smiles again,

That cranky smile that I know

It makes me sense something is off guard with her

Then also i say nothing.

Finally when it is too much

And her smile makes me nauseous

I blurt out words that I shouldn't have

"Can you please shut up,

I am not in the mood today as usual"

It felt so great to have spoken my heart out

I was in no mood of saying anything to her 

Again 

And I have never seen her since that day.