Losing life

Why do I have this feeling that I’m losing everything?

Losing the ones I love, my heart, soul and my mind

Life can’t just fall apart when I just got it back together

I hate the feeling of not wanting to get up in the morning

The feeling of no motivation to get up and simply get dressed

I want to do something, I want to get out of this house but the same time I don’t

I don’t want to be at a friend’s, I don’t want to leave but I know I need it so much

Daily drinking just as a causal thing even though I’d love to be trashed to not remember a thing

To get up and puke in the morning, sleep all day, with everyone leaving me alone with the hangover I sit with

I just want my life back

I want everything to be right and not feel like I fucked up

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

I’ve been there many many times but believe me things change ever so gradually and time passes swiftly till one day we are forty nearly fifty then sixty I say enjoy your youth don’t waste it you never get it back all you will have one day are memories I like your poem keep writing ✍️ enjoy 😉 life don’t waste it go and find it

[I Am Svetlana]

This is also very understandable. I felt like I was losing everything last night, my heart, my mind, my soul...but as I said before: we can't go through this alone. Yes, drinking is a help, but it doesn't last for long until you really get hooked and depending on it 24/7 and that can get ugly. We may not feel alive or ourselves, but at least we can always get through these hard times eventually.