Playboy

this was mainly a piece written for me to just vent and also try to relate to some people

July

It started in
July

You swept me off my feet.
For a short while I had even believed,
that there was more to you than what they said.
You proved me wrong, my "prince."
For I had a broken tiara.

An you just laughed in my face.

Again and again.
You left and came back.

Again and again.
I always welcomed you back.

I was in love.

It faded in
August

You hurt me even more.
I had finally found love for myself.
You got mad. Maybe you were mad because,
I wasn't your toy anymore.
I had given up.

You cut off communication.

I didn't care.
Not at first.

Then I did.
After a while.

I was falling back in love.

You came back in
October

Two months later,
I get a message. From you.
You claimed to have realized your mistake.
You said you realized you still cared.
And with one sentence,

I felt my heart shatter.

You had her.
She had you.

I had no one.
Especially not you.

I hated love.

It continued into
November.

We hadn't talked for a while.
You skyped out of no where that night.
You called me beautiful. Made me smile. Gave me hope.
Then you reminded me of her.
she still had you.

I crashed back to reality.

You had her.
You were talking to me.

Just like old times.
I could have said I was happy.

I loved you more.

Then came
December.

We talked a lot.
We reconnected.
You said the sweetest things.
They made me smile.
They meant nothing.

You still had her.
You always reminded me.

I died each time you did.
I could barely talk to you.

How am I still in love with you.

Then entered
My thoughts

How can you do this.
Play with my emotions so carelessly.
You call me your best friend and buddy.
You do that to every girl you talk to.
You expect me to stay.

When I'm fighting not to leave.

You still break all your promises.
I'm there for you more than you are for me.

You always said you could forget me not.
Yet you don't realize, my heart has only begun to rot.

Do you love me? Or not?

Author's Note

A poem i thought up about a past "relationship" i wanted to recreate the story to fit maybe other peoples experiences with love.

Reviews

[POETIC SOUL 2013]

sometimes people don't realize how they hurt others until it's too late. this is a wonderful poem. that leaves me in tears to know that you love him so any took that love for granted. it also pains me to know that almost did the same thing to you. I love you honey. excellent display of words

[Mikayla Rasmussen]

i love you too

[Azure Montessa (Blue)]

I can absolutely relate to this and every word radiates pain of a broken heart. I love everything about this. Well-written, Mikayla. I wish you bright days ahead! :)

[Moebia]

Love it...it's a whole story. The only thing I would say is perhaps word some phrases differently and perhaps broaden the word choice. But this is lovely. Nice job.

[Mikayla Rasmussen]

ya the word choice and phrases was one thing i struggled with especially trying to keep it to the pattern and to have it make sense. thank you though :)

[Moebia]

Well don't worry then, it definitely made sense! :)

[Mikayla Rasmussen]

thank you :)

[Jordan's Back]

This is a deep sorrowful write and I know you been through allot Angel. I just know somehow, some way, we will manage to pick up those pieces of that shattered heart, and mend it into the beautiful heart it once was. i love you my angel and i am always here for you no matter what.

[Mikayla Rasmussen]

i love you too baby