Forever and Always

A Story by RockMilkshake

You told me I am yours. Forever and always. I wish it weren't true.

I remember the time when you held me in your arms, stared into the starry sky and whispered into my ear the sweetest words I have ever heard in my entire life.

“You’ll forever be mine. Forever and always.”

I remember blushing against your shoulder and smiling uncontrollably, telling you that I won’t ever leave you, that I’ll stand by you forever.

Oh, how I wish I could turn back time. How I wish I could take back the words I said to you before I knew the truth, the words I thought I would never regret saying because I knew I loved you.

But forever is a long, long time.

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It was a miracle I survived. I should’ve known that something wasn’t quite right when you found me in the middle of nowhere and saved me from the fall that would’ve broken every bone in my body had you not caught me in time.

But I was too traumatized, too scared, too happy to have been saved that I didn’t think to question my savior who had the most beautiful pair of eyes that spoke of nothing but innocence.

Only now that I know that behind those eyes lay darkness beyond imagination, and the beauty that I had seen that day was only a trap that I had naively fallen into.

You told me I was brave, that I was strong, that I still would’ve survived without you. But I told you that you were my savior, that I would forever owe you my life. You smiled and nodded.

I thought I didn’t die because you saved me. You stole me from Death, but never would I have guessed that you are much, much worse.

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The memory of your hand in mine as we stroll along the afternoon streets still burns fresh in my mind. It was the first time I told you I loved you, and I couldn’t decide whether the heat in my cheeks were from the humid air or the embarrassment that I felt. You saw through my attempts at covering it up and pulled me against you, circled your arms around me and placed a peck on my head.

It was only the second time you held me this way and my heart soared to the heavens. Had I known what I was getting myself into, I would’ve pushed you away and ran"as fast as my scrawny legs would’ve let me"but seeing the way you are now, running wouldn’t have done me any good.

And that little kiss on the head.

Oh, how you’ve made a fool out of me.

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You stand in front of me, proud and tall. Two pools of darkness cave into your skull where I used to stare into your eyes and get lost in them. Your hands, once smooth and warm, are now weapons of destruction, two long swords that destroy anything in your way.

However, one thing didn’t change. I glance at the left side of your bare chest, where your heart should be"empty darkness. I remember when I first found out about it, I asked you what happened, you only said, “My heart doesn’t exist.” That was when I knew, surely, that you have never loved me back.

I should’ve recognized the lack of heartbeat when I laid against your chest. I should’ve never let you save me from dying that day. I should’ve never let myself fall for you. I should have never let you have my heart.

And now, you have my soul.

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I dangle over the dark, bottomless abyss with my wrists chained to the ceiling like a precious chandelier. My lungs gasp for air and I push down the chains to bring my body upward. It would’ve satisfied me if the air weren’t acidic and suffocate me even more. But don’t worry, it won’t kill me, I’m no longer prone to death.

How I wish I were. To leave this insufferable place and go anywhere but here"a mere wish that would never come true.

I’m left to hang here forever, bound by the chains that were formed of the love I had for you. Left to forever thirst for your presence and never be satisfied.

If only I hadn’t chosen to run from home that day and tried to kill myself by jumping off a cliff and regretting it halfway. Then you wouldn’t have found me, and I wouldn’t have fallen for you. My soul would’ve been spared.

But it’s all too late now. The deeds have been done, and I belong to the devil.

Forever and always.