Only time will tell.

A Story by hydlove

My thoughts are scattered today so please forgive me if my writing is difficult to comprehend.

I don't really know what to write today. I just want to lay out my thoughts. I suddenly had the urge to start typing because I don't think i'd be able to sleep anytime soon. My heartburn was kicking earlier and I'm just glad it didn't last for two hours this time. It can get very painful.

Lately, it's been difficult for me to keep in touch with my boyfriend. I transferred universities this summer and he got accepted in his faculty, which meant that it will be a busy school year for the both of us. I knew that it was going to be like this and I really want him to do well with his exams. These days, I barely see him because of his hectic schedule but I am glad that he is taking his studies very well.

However, there are times when I feel like I can't talk to him. I always feel as if I will bother him if I message him (which I probably will if I do) and the only time I can really talk to him is when it is time to say "good morning", "good night".

I always try my best not to feel like this because I feel that I am being selfish towards him. I can't just tell him that I miss him because I don't want to be a burden. I really do wish him the best at school and I want to see him succeed when he gets his exam results. But today is just one of those days when I just want to see him and have him all to myself even for just a couple hours. I'm sure it is a normal feeling right?

Today,

one of my best friends broke up with her boyfriend. It was a long distance relationship. I felt very sad to see her cry after she hung up the phone and I didn't know what to say. I wanted to cry with her. She always talked about him and I could tell that she really liked him. I felt very sad when she left to go home. I hate the fact that I can't do anything about her situation and all I can do is be there for her as a friend. I hope what I can do is enough to make her happy.

I think her situation is much more important than mine. This is what I realized today. Although I feel sad at times, I should be able to do something about my situation at least. Her, on the other hand, could not do anything but hang up the phone. Although I felt helpless, I am glad that I was by her side at the time she needed someone most. I want to continue being there for her and I hope she will recover soon. Only time will tell.

She is a very good friend to me and I only wish her happiness.

My writing is very confusing tonight. I feel as if I did not convey the words that i've wanted to say, but this is all I can give for tonight. My brain is tired. Good night.